Stephanie McCrummen: HE WAKES UP, and even before he opens his eyes, he can see his beautiful, delusional son.
Gus, Creigh Deeds thinks.
He lies in bed a few minutes more, trying to conjure specific images. Gus dancing. Gus playing the banjo. Gus with the puppies. Any images of Gus other than the final ones he has of his 24-year-old, mentally ill son attacking him and then walking away to kill himself, images that intrude on his days and nights along with the questions that he will begin asking himself soon, but not yet. A few minutes more. Gus fishing. Gus looking at him. Gus smiling at him. Time to start the day.
He gets out of bed, where a piece of the shotgun he had taken apart in those…
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